Yet another long stretch of time has gone by, and little writing has been done on my part. To be truthful, for some reason I found it easier to blog when our little Jace was here. Since he left us, it's been hard for me to form words on paper. However, God has indeed given us another little blessing to write about...the purpose of this new posting.

This Monday, October 27th, we found out that Jace is going to have a little brother!! Our new son is due next March 28th, 2009. How amazing, and certainly not coincidental, that our second son is due exactly one day before Jace was due this year. I know that, along with so many other things, God is using the timing of this pregnancy, as well as the reality of another son, to show us His faithfulness amidst sorrow. Again and again with this second pregnancy, both Danny and I are reminded that "the Lord gives and the Lord takes away," and that even though God took our first son to be with Him, He has given us another son, strong and healthy, to comfort us in our sorrow.

A few months after Jace died, I was praying and driving at the same time. Looking up, I saw the most beautiful rainbow in front of me. I remember distinctly hearing the Lord say to me, "This is my promise to you, my child, just as I made a promise to Noah, that I will never take another child from you." Amidst tears, I told the Lord that I didn't deserve His goodness, and He replied to me that "also just as I blessed Job twofold after taking away everything he had, so will I also bless you and Danny twofold after taking your first son away." I know that God is faithful to His promises. I have seen this over and over again. So I need not fear about losing another child, and as to the years ahead...I know the Lord's hand is on them!

But back to Monday and the ultrasound of our new son. We ended up going in to see Dr. Hare, the specialist who delivered Jace, to perform the ultrasound. Although I am going back to my original OBGYN for this pregnancy, Dr. Mata recommended that we have Dr. Hare do our ultrasound, just to make sure everything was okay. Although Danny and I were reluctant to go back to Dr. Hare because of so many bad associations and memories, we conceded and made the appointment with her. This past Monday rolled around and both Danny and I were nervous, actually, I was scared to death. Doubts and fears poured into my mind, as I prayed for a healthy baby. I knew the Lord had promised us the health of this child, but once again, I gave way to fear. The ultrasound went wonderfully. Dr. Hare was relaxed and friendly; after scanning the baby she said, "I want to tell you first off that the baby looks healthy and normal." We breathed a sigh of relief, and once again, I asked the Lord's forgiveness for doubting Him. Dr. Hare proceeded to show us that we were having another son, and that everything looked great. He's a big baby, this time around, and very active. Already I can feel him moving quite often. We are going back in for a follow-up ultrasound on December 18th. Praise the Lord for His faithfulness to us once again, and praise His name for this new child.

Danny and I are excited, and I believe, humbled, as we look towards March and the birth of our little one. We have learned, amidst so many other lessons, to appreciate everything given to us. I hope that we do not take this child for granted. Our desire is to cherish every moment...and to make the most of the time we are given.
Thank you all for your prayers! I hope to see many of you at the upcoming baby shower next year (date and time have not yet been decided.) :)